It seams lately that I am failing at this parenting thing. My stress level is high. I don’t have time to take a shower. My house is a completely disaster. And I figured hey I doing just fine my kids aren’t in harms way. RIGHT?
Well I guess my kids weren’t out of harms way I was causing harm on them and I wasn’t even meaning to. It started yesterday. Paisley was really tired and cranky and around 1130 I decided to put her down for her nap. She was so tired she didn’t even eat her lunch. When she woke up a few hours later she was so fussy. She just cried and screamed and banged her head on the floor. This went on for SEVERAL hours. She just kept crying and crying. My nerves were shot. Well about 6pm comes around and Tommy tells me lets just have pizza for dinner and for me to go get it. So I go to walk out the door and it hits me. I forgot to feed Paisley lunch because she wouldn’t eat earlier. Fail #1.
So that leads me to today. I was doing my 500th load of laundry and I was hanging a bedspread out on some chairs out back and Scarlett came to help me. We hung the bedspread out and were walking back in. I turned to shut the door after she walked in and slammed the back door on her 3 fingers. She started screaming her finger was bleeding. Oh yeah great parenting on my part. Fail #2.
Right now I feel like the worst parent in the world. I feel just completely rotten. And yet another year of the Mom award of the year going to someone other than me.